They had wanted to protect me--only six years old at the time--from the complex and morose concept of death.However, when the end inevitably arrived, I wasn’t trying to comprehend what dying was; I was trying to understand how I had been able to abandon my sick grandmother in favor of playing with friends and watching TV.It was my turn to take the shovel, but I felt too ashamed to dutifully send her off when I had not properly said goodbye. I refused to let go of my grandmother, to accept a death I had not seen coming, to believe that an illness could not only interrupt, but steal a beloved life.
They had wanted to protect me--only six years old at the time--from the complex and morose concept of death.
Anyone can write about how they won the big game or the summer they spent in Rome.
When recalling these events, you need to give more than the play-by-play or itinerary.
Admissions officers have to read an unbelievable number of college essays, most of which are forgettable.
Many students try to sound smart rather than sounding like themselves.
It may sound like a chore, and it will certainly take a substantial amount of work.
But it's also a unique opportunity that can make a difference at decision time.
However, a simple walk on a hiking trail behind my house made me open my own eyes to the truth.
Over the years, everything--even honoring my grandmother--had become second to school and grades.
As my shoes humbly tapped against the Earth, the towering trees blackened by the forest fire a few years ago, the faintly colorful pebbles embedded in the sidewalk, and the wispy white clouds hanging in the sky reminded me of my small though nonetheless significant part in a larger whole that is humankind and this Earth.
Before I could resolve my guilt, I had to broaden my perspective of the world as well as my responsibilities to my fellow humans.