I feel terrible though, like I've let him down.
He's just frustrated and fed up with me now, as is everyone else.
I feel guilty enough - I wish I wasn't depressed - but I am, and I don't know how to fix it.
Please, can anyone advise me on how to move forward, and how to get on with writing my thesis? Is there an advisor of some sort you can speak to at the university?
Quitting is not an option, but I don't know how to pick my thesis up again and start writing.
Plus I'm crippled by the idea that I'll push myself to start working and it'll be a waste because they'll refuse my extended suspension and kick me out anyway.
It was very hard, I was a wreck and couldn't really behave like a normal person but going back to work and into my routine was the best thing I could have done.
In spite of everything I got a first and Dean's commendation for my third year work.
I'm about halfway through it and I don't want this depression to ruin the rest of my life. It sounds to me as if you need to get yourself stronger, and work towards healing your depression in order to complete.
I'm sure you can take proper breaks in order to recover from illness - completing a Ph D is so isolating and pressured, I can't imagine it would help matters. If not, maybe that would explain the comments about your time off.